Mar 28

Realized this years ago and the minute I'm beginning to think that maybe that isn't true, I come across others that just prove it again.

Nov 27

Okay, so I was in psychology class today and we were talking about this experiment.

To explain, this experiment was done in the 1950s. A newspaper article was run asking for men to join the experiment, saying that they were going to be paid for participating in it. So, the participants began to come.

The experiment starts off with two people and the experimenter. The two people are assigned the roles of either "Teacher" or "Learner." The Teacher is asked to say pairs of words to the Learner (blue-girl, tall-man, green-tree, etc) and then repeat the first word in the phrase and wait for the Learner to say what the other word is (i.e. teacher says blue, learner should say girl). If the Learner says the wrong word, the Teacher is suppose to press a lever on this board that gives a shock to the Learner.

The experiment is suppose to prove that a person can learn from being punished.

Well, the Learner announces before the experiment begins that he has a heart condition and wants to know if the shocks are dangerous. The experimenter says that the shocks are painful but not dangerous. The Teacher is then given a test shock to show how the shock feels. The Teacher agrees that it is painful.

So, the experiment goes on and the Teacher continues to shock the Learner at each wrong answer. The Learner begins screaming in pain at the shocks and begging for the Teacher to stop and to let him out. Most people hit a point where they don't want to continue, but the experimenter tells them that they have to keep going if the experiment is going to be successful. After some prompting from the experimenter, the Teacher resumes his role.

Some people hit a point at which they refused to shock the Learner anymore and even go as far as saying they will give back the money. Eventually, the experimenter says that the experiment will have to be thrown out if they do not continue yet the people continue saying they will not do it anymore.

However, some people keep going after being prompted by the experimenter and begin shocking the Learner at a voltage that is lethal. After hitting 450 volts, the Learner no longer seems to be conscious so they say that the experiment will have to stop.

At that time that the experiment stops, you find out that the Learner isn't actually being shocked, but that they are faking it and acting as though they are in extreme amounts of pain.

The true experiment is to see how far a person will obey a person in power. Since the experimenter kept telling the Teacher it was okay to keep going, the Teacher believed they were doing what was needed, so they obey.


Now, in the psychology world, this experiment is very important cause it can explain why people believed and followed Hitler and why people do things they know are wrong only because someone above them says too.

So, I had already read about this experiment in my sociology class and so I knew what was happening. My teacher brought out the video and started playing it for us. During it, the Teacher would hit a voltage at which the Learner was suppose to scream in pain.

Guess what, my whole class laughed when the guy screamed. They laughed!!! Who the heck laughs when someone is supposedly in pain??? I'm not sure whether it mentioned that the Learners weren't being shocked, but still, why would people find that funny? Do these people just enjoy other peoples pain? Me and the three guys around me (they were the only ones I could see) were the only ones who weren't laughing and we all kept looking when people burst into laughter.

A few people left during the show and I would've as well cause I was so disgusted with these people but I ended up staying cause I wanted to see if my teacher brought up the point about the laughter. She didn't, but it still bugs me.

I mentioned this to my sister (who's going into psychology) and she was ready to march into my classroom and yell at my class. During our lunch, she kept saying how she hates freshmen cause they don't grasp the reality of things and how I am not what she considers a freshmen, even though that is my status.

This really just confirms my reasoning for why I hate people. I can't even express how disappointed I am at the people in my class and how disturbed I am now. Some of the people laughing were even the people who are decent and kind and who would never hurt a soul unless they were backed into a corner.

I am so disgusted right now.



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Nov 15

Okay, I can have a perverted mind at times. I've accepted it. But, I think it's rubbing off on my computer.

My computer has this automatic location thing that will tell me when a computer I can connect to is in the area and ask me if I want to connect. So, I was sitting in my schools university center and just minding my own business when this message pops up:

"Windows media player has locted: jasons-lap
Would you like to connect to it?"

I couldn't stop laughing. I scared the poor person sitting at the table next to me.



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Nov 8

It's been like three months and I still can't draw anything decent. I think I'm just being to hard on myself and erasing before I finish shading and all, but it's becoming a pain. I keep trying to get myself to draw something, like how I feel, and I'll draw it and hate it.

About the only thing I can draw seems to be random creatures that are attacking me (which I've dubbed the perfectionist part of me cause it seems to have it out for me).


Also, you know how you're taught to draw by drawing out the basic and filling it in. That doesn't work for me. I can't seem to draw a face after drawing the basic head. I've tried but the only time it comes out right is if I draw the eyes, nose, and mouth first and then fill in the outline and hair.

I think this is cause I am VERY expressive with my eyes, so I don't want to lose the detail in them, and if I draw them last, they become to small [in my mind] to convey an expression enough.

Positive thing. I could apparently be a great fashion designer. I've been doodling different outfits cause I, myself, wear very basic clothing yet most people don't. So, I was doodling in class and had three of four people ask me if I was going to be a fashion designer and that I should cause they would definitely wear that.

I'm also getting better at drawing bodies in motion. I can't draw the face on them, but I can draw a body that looks like it's alive. That's at least something, I guess.


I'm also annoyed cause I told my sister I would design her a web page for psychology club, but she hasn't told me what she wants on it so basically I have to design a basic thing and then ask what else she wants on it and I hate doing that cause I just want to get it done in one sitting, not four or five.

And my last grandparent died recently so I've been like, out of it, so I don't know if I've done all my homework or not.


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Oct 1
I don't think any of you really care, but I love my new laptop. *cuddles laptop* And I shouldn't be allowed to draw with my tablet. Every time I've opened up an image editor, I keep drawing eyes. I mean, I draw eyes all the time as it is, but I'm trying to draw people now and I just don't seem to be in the mood to draw a person.

Okay, apparently this is turning into a rant cause yeah. So, I was drawing earlier, and everything turned out wrong. So I went and decided to look at other people's art and what did I do, I managed to close DA, open an image editor program, and then draw a person. Of course, it was almost an exact copy of one of the images I had looked at earlier. Bleh. It's just not fair.

Can someone just come and shoot the thing in my head that keeps me from drawing anything except eyes?

Oh, and I should add that I'm in this shading phase. I keep shading everything. Cept I can't draw, so I'm shading circles or whatever.

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Sept 12
Simply to get that huge tagged topic off my front page.

Hi all, I'm in college, stressing out, and dying from the heat. How was your day?

Questions


WHAT IF I:

» I committed suicide:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

» Personality:
» Art:
» Comments:
» Character Designs:

WHAT ABOUT US:

» Who are you?
» Are we friends?
» When and how did we meet?
» How have I affected you?
» What do you think of me?
» What's the fondest memory you have of me?
» How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
» Have I ever hurt you?
» Would you hug me?
» Are we close?
» Emotionally, what stands out?
» Do you wish I was cooler?
» On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
» Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
» Am I loveable?
» How long have you known me?
» Describe me in one word.
» What was your first impression?
» Do you still think that way about me now?
» What do you think my weakness is?
» Do you think I'll get married?
» What about me makes you happy?
» What about me makes you sad?
» What reminds you of me?
» What's something you would change about me?
» How well do you know me?
» Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
» Do you think I would kill someone?
» Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?



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Questionaire


1) Full Name: Elizabeth (you ain't getting my last name)

2) Male/Female: Female

3) Were you named after anyone? Nope

4) Does your name mean anything? No clue, my mom chose it because of the 'el' in my name. It means "of god" or "from god".

5) Nick Name(s): Oh man, this list is huge. Beth, Liz, Lisa, Iz, Lizzie, Elisa, Eliza (yes, there is a difference). I know there are more, I just hate them.

6) If you had to choose a new name, what would it be? Don't know. Haven't thought about that.

7) Date Of Birth: 7/11/1989

8) Place of Birth and Current Location: Born in Taylor MI, raise there and in Livonia. Right now I'm in Oscoda MI. If you've never heard of it, don't worry.

9) Nationality: I don't know percentages, but I'm part French, English, Italian, Polish, Germany, Ukrainian, and Cherokee Indian (and I can prove it). I'm basically a mutt.

10) Astrology Sign: Cancer

11) Chinese Astrology Sign: Snake

12) Religion: I have no clue (don't ask)

13) Whats your favorite smell? Bleh. Food mostly. No favorites in particular.

14) Political Position? Not big on politics.

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Milk. That's all my family drinks it seems

16) Hair + Eye color: Brown

17) Do you look like anyone famous? No

18) What do you look like? Uhh, myself.

19) Any unusual talents? Uhh, let's see. I'm unusually good at new games. First time I ever played poker I got a straight flush.

20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous? Right handed.

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other? Straight.

22) What do you do for a living? I'm a cashier at a mini golf and fudge shop.

23) What do you do for fun? Draw, video games, read manga, hanging with friends, sing, dance, toss around my flags/brooms/anything.

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with? At the moment, I'm limited to pencil and paper. I hope to get into digital artwork soon.

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with? Computers

26) Have you met your grandparents? All except one

27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend: No

28) Crush: No

29) What celebrity would you date if you could? None. I don't find anyone that interesting.

30) Current worries? School and my laptop

31) Favorite online Guy/Girl(s): Uhh, I don't know. I don't really talk to people online.

32) Favorite place to be? On the beach, in a room with AC, or out side at night.

33) Least favorite place to be? With a bunch of annoying people, I don't know.

34) Do you burn or tan? Depends, I tan unless I'm in the sun to long (like 9 hours), then I burn.

35) Ever break a bone? Nope, but I think I've come close.

36) What is your favorite cereal? I don't eat cereal.

37) Person you cry with: I don’t cry.

Do You Have...

38) Any sisters: Older sister Michelle, 21. She great. Can be a pain sometimes. I have no clue where these mood swings come from. When she's angry though, man, she's unstable.

39) Any brothers: Nope.

40) Any pets: No. T_T

41) A unique quality? It's more odd than unique. I haven't found any guy worthy on the word 'Hot' yet. Oh, and I don't think anyone is 'cute' either. Ask my sister.

42) High Speed Internet: WI-FI

43) A Personal phone line: My cell phone.

44) A Cell phone: Yep, but it's never on.

45) A visible birthmark: Darker patch of skin high up on my right thigh. And no you can't see it.

46) A Pool or hot tub: Do you consider a lake a pool?

47) A Car: Soon, but not till I get my license.

Describe Your...

48) Personality: Smart ass. Hey, better then a dumb one.

49) Driving: Yeah, sorta.

50) Your clothing style: T-shirt and jeans.

51) Room: An organized mess. That's the only thing I can think to call it.

52) What’s missing: Nothing, cept my laptop. T_T

53) School: University of Michigan. GO BLUE!!!!!!

54) Bed: A random thing I sleep it. Otherwise a waste of space.

55) Relationship with your parent(s): Amazing. I know where I got my smart ass personality from.

Do You

56) Believe in yourself: Yeah, of course.

57) Do you believe in love at first sight? No.

58) Consider yourself a good listener: Huh, what were you saying? Lol. Yeah, when I'm not listening to music that is.

59) Have a future dream that you would like to share? Uhh, I want to be an animator or a game designer.

60) Get Along with your parents: Yeah, mostly. Cept when someone is playing the martyr.

61) Save your e-mail conversations: I clean my box out every once in a while. A few funny messages I keep though.

62) Pray: Yeah.

63) Believe in reincarnation: No, but it's fun to think about.

64) Brush your teeth twice a day? Yeah, sometimes.

65) Like to talk on the phone: I'm a girl, do the math.

66) Like to eat? Hello, girl, college student, and LHS alumni, of course.

67) Like to exercise? I love playing sports. Running or biking for no reason though I hate.

68) Like to watch sports? Hell yeah. Football!!! GO BLUE!!!

69) Sing in the car? Yeah, I sing all the time.

70) What is a dream that you have all the time? Uhh, I don't know. My dreams are so random that I'm not sure if I've had any repeats.

71) Dream in color? Yeah, most of the time.

72) Do you have nightmares? Haven't had one in years.

73) Sleep with a stuffed animal: Nah.

What Is

74) Right next to you: The back of the couch.

75) On your favorite coffee cup? Nothing. But I don't drink coffee, it's my hot chocolate cup.

76) On your mouse pad: Don't have one.

77) Your favorite flavor of gum? Don't chew gum.

78) Your brand of deodorant? Uhh, don't know. I just get the cheapest.

79) Your dream honeymoon spot: Uhh, I don't even have a boyfriend, one step at a time.

80) Your dream husband/wife: Oh man, I don't know. They would have to be able to put up with me and my sense of humor. Heh. If I ever find that, it'd be a miracle.

81) Hiding in your closet? *shifts eyes* Oh nothing. Lol

82) Under your bed: Nothing, there is no space under my bed. Ha.

83) The name of one of your closest/best friends? Emily, just cause I really want to talk to her now.

84) Your bad time of the day: Morning.

85) Your worst fear(s): That all I do while I'm here isn't going to be remembered after I die.

86) What's the weather like: Nice.

87) Your favorite time of year? All. Cause I'm weird like that.

88) Your favorite holiday? All, again, cause I'm weird like that.

89) A material weakness? Uh, not sure if I have one. I'm very frugal so I see everything as "That's __ hours of work," not "That's $__."

90) The weirdest food or drink that you like: Uhh, I don't know.

91) At the top of your "to-do list"? Everything I wanted to do this summer.

92) The hardest thing about growing up: Learning to take responsibility for your own actions (I see a lot of people who don't do that still even though they are older)

93) A pet peeve? Annoying, loud people who don't shut up. People who are dumb (and I don't mean they don't know what the square root of 94032 dumb). I just thought of another. Guys and their pants. I'm tired of seeing every guys boxers.

94) Your scariest moment: Watching a jet ski come barreling towards my sister, my friends, and me.

95) Your attitude about love? It's out there but I'm not going to spend my life to go find it. If it finds me, great. If not, thats great too.

96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of a romantic interest? Nothing. I've never had a crush on anyone. Or, at least, I haven't found some one worthy of me making a fool of myself for.

97) The worst feeling in the world: Having the worlds biggest headache while the construction people are repaving the road near your house so they are using jack hammers to break up the concrete.

98) The best feeling in the world: Bringing a smile to someone's face.

99) Who sent this to you? Courtney.

100) Who will you tag? Anyone who feels like doing this.

August 5
Okay, I wish doctors would get their story straight before scaring families like this. My cousin called today to tell us that my grandfather had a massive heart attack and they didn't think he was going to pull through. Before this even happened, he had 99% blockage of a blood vessel to his brain as well as the effects of smoking and chewing tobacco for at least 20 years. Well, my dad went down to see him (since it's his father) and he just called me a few minutes ago to tell us that the doctors now believe he is going to pull through. Do they have to pull us around like that. I don't need to have the whole "another funeral" then not hanging over my head.

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August 4
Wow, 3:12 AM. I should go to bed. Though I'm not tired.

You know what, my 18th birthday came and went and I think I missed it. I mean, same thing happened with my 16th birthday as well. Those two are suppose to be fun birthdays, and really nothing happened on either of them for me. Weird.

And you know what, I don't feel like I'm 18. I mean, cept for the fact I'm looking at the 15-16 year olds driving and going, "God, you're too young. You can't be behind that wheel. You're going to kill us all." But, besides that, I feel the same.

Oh, the fact I now have a check book, credit card, and debit card makes me feel a little older. But, you know, I'm frugal anyway so that really shouldn't matter.

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Look, now it's 4 in the morning. Still not tired.
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July 21
Okay, I hate my style as of right now. Every time I try to draw something, it changes. I have no clue how this happens but it does.

Annoying part is I'm trying to figure out whether I should make these comics sorta realistic or if I should just go with whatever style decides to pop up. This is so annoying.

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Okay, this is really starting to annoy me. I SEE MY COMICS IN OTHER PEOPLES STYLES. What's up with that? I would have no problem with that if I could duplicate their styles but, nope, I suck at them, so yeah, that just kills this. Someone help me. T^T
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This ain't worth a new journal so I'll recycle this one.

June 4
Okay, I need your opinion on this the few people that actually read my journal. Like I said below, I have like 120 ideas for comics and about 50 other ideas for comics that relate to another story I'm writing.

Well, I'm wondering for the first batch of comics if I should make up a story to go along with why there are so many random characters in my comics. Also, if I do use a story, I can create like another 40 comics or so. So, I can't decide whether to have a story or not.

Now, on to the next problem, since both groups of comics hold a character based off me in it, I'm wondering if at one point they should overlap and characters from one story come into the other. If I do that, then I could use the character from my story instead of making up a reason why this random group is coming out of nowhere.

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May 29
Okay, let's see. This is a quick little update about my mind (cause apparently it is weird and likes to do this to me). So, it's 3:13 in the morning and I'm sitting here typing this. I love the night, love the dark, and don't want to go to sleep cause I'm not tired. Well, I have orientation for college in two days and I need to get up early tomorrow so I can go to bed early tomorrow so I can get up earlier the next day (yes, that is the only way to get me back on schedule, telling me to go to bed earlier doesn't work). Well, I was sitting here typing up all the comic ideas from the notebook I have and I'm just counted all of them and there's something like 120 already. I've only been keeping track for the past few days (like, this weekend). I'm going to be drawing comics for the rest of my life if I can come up with that amount in just three days.

Oh well.

Thinking of getting a laptop (I'm random at this time of morning). Can't decide if I should break down and get Vista or pay the extra hundred and get XP. After I figure that out I have to figure out whether I want to get photoshop or open canvas. I think I'm going to download the trials again and compare after I get my laptop. Yay for trial programs.


Anyway, saw POTC last night. That was cool. So saw the ending coming. And, I want to know how standing in a bucket of water that is on land constitutes being at sea? Anyway, I should go to bed. Night.

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May 19
Explain how I can have a 100.5 degree temperature and freeze. I'm so cold right now it's not funny. And to top it off my grad party was suppose to be today and I was too sick that we had to cancel it. What makes it worse is that my graduation is tomorrow and I'm not sure if I'm going to make it. I mean, if I still have a 100 some temperature tomorrow, I don't think I should be 1) around people and 2) walking in high heels.

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May 17
Okay, I'm here again with random problems. Any help would be appreciated cause I really can't make up my mind on these.

1) We had to write these 55 word short stories for my class and I want to post them here. Should I post them seperately or in one deviation (think about it, they are 55 words long, that's it)?

2) Some of them go along with a picture I drew or with a strip I'm planning on drawing. Should I wait till I have the picture up to post them or should I just post them anyway?

3) If I post the stories in one deviation and upload the pictures they go with later, should I place the story in the description of the picture or just link back to the deviation?

Yeah, these are the problems I have... I'm not normal, deal with it.

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May 15
Okay, this is really random but I need anyone's help. Name some famous guy that you/people think is hot. I need this for a comic I plan on writing and I can't think of anyone.

Thanks for your help.

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April 2
Okay, going to sound like a really girly girl right now but, ugh, I broke a nail. And I don't mean those little chip things, like it's into the skin and bleeding. It hurts to write this and even to draw (and I really should draw now). Anyway, I'm trying to procrastinate on doing things so that's probably the only reason I'm writing this. That, and I'm trying to get myself to write journals more. I hate telling people about my life but I think I need to write more about me so my other ideas can come through.

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March 27
Well, recently I've been having bad luck or something. I had to get a ride home today and totally forgot about it till the last minute. Well, I managed to find a person to drive me home which was good. I get home and pull out my key and go to open the screen and it won't open. So I look and the lock is on the door. So, I sit there for a while before pulling out my foldable ruler to fit between the door and the frame. I then slide it up and the lock undid. Then I was able to finally get into my house and relax.

It's sad when you have to break into your house even when you have a key.

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March 24
Okay, so, when people ask, "what did you do over the weekend," most people respond by saying hang out with friends, mall, etc. Then you have me. I went fishing to try and catch our dock section that floated out into the water.

There is still ice on the lake and the water level is up to normal and one of our older dock sections got caught up in the water and floated off into the lake. Well, with the ice still on the lake, the water is frozen and going into it with wadders still wouldn't be enough to keep you warm. So, we had to try a different approach to get it back. Well, we took a clamp and rope and tried to throw it out far enough to grab onto the dock (not even close). When that didn't work, I tried shooting it with my arrow (no luck). Then we pulled out a tennis racket and tried hitting a tennis ball out far enough to get to it (with no avail). Well, the dock section is still out their floating in our lake. It got caught on the big ice section still in the lake and we're hoping it floats back tomorrow.

This is my life... scary, isn't it?

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March 13
I blame this on ~lilchicklet

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